Still Here, Still Hanging On

Do you ever have one of those days?
The kinda day when you realize how
very busy and crazy your life has become?!

Yesterday I was the woman that seemed to balance
the weight of the world, with a smile and hot meal.
But this morning?
I just wanted to go back to bed and cry.
The worst part is that I'm not even
a lay in the bed and cry kinda girl.
Who has time for that anyway?!

So seriously, what's my problem?
More importantly why did I meltdown today??

Here's the way I see it.
We've had lots of changes lately
and today was the day they all caught up with me.

We started August with Andy's new job.
It's an awesome opportunity
that I'm certain he was made for,
yet it is kicking our tail.
Then Joseph started high school.
Not only do we have high school classes,
we have high school football too.
And James?
Well he did start elementary school.
But nothing has been as challenging for him
as being without his Daddy and brother in the evenings.
By the time bedtime rolls around I'm
certain my eyes are crossed and ears are bleeding.

So today Andy was off
and home for the first day in a week.
He knew I wasn't myself and
asked what was going on.
I told him the best way to describe the way
I was feeling was to picture this...
the world was a million piece puzzle
and I was the Gumby holding it together.
True to form he stepped in and saved my sanity.
After a hot bath and early jammy tales intervention,
I'm chilling.
I promised to be good as new tomorrow,
and I'm certain I will.

This morning I silently wished for my life to return to normal,

then realized I wasn't sure what normal was.
Now tonight I have hope that we'll find a new normal.
Life will settle down long enough for us
to laugh over our crazy days.
But the best part is that the God who brought us to it,
will carry us through it!